Right and wrong

Date written: 20 Dec 2016, NYC time
Date published online: 18 Jan 2017, NYC time

I need a reason for the things you do
You need a miracle to get you through
I try to guess what’s going on inside
But you would rather hide

My heart is tired, from all the low and then high
Your legs are broken, you ain’t up for a fight
You make it rain from an empty sky
Should I have known that was gonna be our last night?

You keep saying you’re falling to pieces
You keep saying you’re not strong
Because of you, I thought of making the right things wrong

I want a lover in the first degree
And you want a woman who isn’t me
At some level, I knew you weren’t right for me
But my heart tried not to see

It wasn’t me, it was you who wanted this
I got dizzy from your charm and your kiss
But as I fell, the spell for you was broken
So much for all those words you had spoken

I guess I was just a toy for you
But I didn’t bend the way you wanted me to

So I can see, we’re falling to pieces
This connection isn’t that strong
Because my heart refuses to make the right things wrong

And the days go by
The days go by
The days go by

And now I’m picking up the pieces
And now I’m trying to stay strong
Now I know what’s right from wrong
And you were wrong, so wrong.

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Date written: Oct 2008 ?, London time
Date published online: 6 Oct 2008, London time
Date republished online: 27 Dec 2016, NYC time

 

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Akhirnya ku nampak
Hidup dengan sabarnya menantiku
Dan ku tahu
Tiada pastinya
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Tiba masanya dalam hidup setiap orang
Semua yang dilihat hanyalah tahun yang berlari
Dan ku kini sudah buat keputusan
Bahawa hari-hari sebegitu sudah tamat

Ku telah jual apa yang boleh
Dan yang tidak ku bawa
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