Facebook, you don’t understand

Started writing: 31 Dec 2016, NYC time
Finished composing: 12 Jan 2017, 9.13 am NYC time
Date published online: 15 Feb 2016, 1.15 am NYC time


Facebook I don’t understand
Why you keep insisting that he’s my friend?
Stop suggesting that he’s in my photos
Or he’s with me whenever I post

It’s a photo of three dark skinned women
He’s a man, and the colour of white linen
And when I’m trying to message somebody
Stop assuming he’s my “favourite” buddy!

The other day, you got even weirder
You suggested I was with his father
I haven’t even met the man
And we’re definitely not Facebook friends

I saw you thought I should friend his sister
I’ll tell you now – that would be a disaster!
Your information – it’s just inaccurate
Or at the very least, it’s dated

It’s true, once we were more than friends
He probably was my favourite man
But that was quite a while ago
These days, we don’t speak anymore

In fact, he deleted me off snapchat
Though I’m not quite sure what he’s so mad at
He stopped following my instagram
So Facebook, you better get with the program

I’ll let you in on a little secret
Though I’m suprised, you haven’t worked it out yet
He told me very explicitly
He wants nothing to do with me

I figure he’s unfollowed me on Facebook
And on his page, I don’t look
So please, stop trying to force this friendship
‘Cause we’ve both accepted, this was a bad relationship


Her chatter

Date written: 30 Dec 2016, 1.45 am NYC time
Date published online: 22 Jan 2016, 5.24 pm NYC time

We’re similar in a lot of ways
Same laugh, same voice, same face
But one thing, really, there’s no way
‘Cause she has way more to say

She’s stringing 20 sentences a second
It’s hard to keep paying attention
I don’t need a play-by-play of what happened
Just summarise it, oh good heavens!

I’ve barely gotten out of bed
It’s too early to decipher what’s said
How is she so chirpy so early?
Please, shhh…until I get my coffee

Don’t get me wrong, I like conversation
A good story requires narration
But when there’s too many details to hear
I can’t help but switch off my ears

When I was young, people said I was quiet
Thought growing up brought out my extravert
But I think it was just relative
Literally, relative to my relative

I love her, I really do love her
Though I sometimes tune out to her chatter
She brings me much joy and much laughter
She’s one of a kind, my sister

Right and wrong

Date written: 20 Dec 2016, NYC time
Date published online: 18 Jan 2017, NYC time

I need a reason for the things you do
You need a miracle to get you through
I try to guess what’s going on inside
But you would rather hide

My heart is tired, from all the low and then high
Your legs are broken, you ain’t up for a fight
You make it rain from an empty sky
Should I have known that was gonna be our last night?

You keep saying you’re falling to pieces
You keep saying you’re not strong
Because of you, I thought of making the right things wrong

I want a lover in the first degree
And you want a woman who isn’t me
At some level, I knew you weren’t right for me
But my heart tried not to see

It wasn’t me, it was you who wanted this
I got dizzy from your charm and your kiss
But as I fell, the spell for you was broken
So much for all those words you had spoken

I guess I was just a toy for you
But I didn’t bend the way you wanted me to

So I can see, we’re falling to pieces
This connection isn’t that strong
Because my heart refuses to make the right things wrong

And the days go by
The days go by
The days go by

And now I’m picking up the pieces
And now I’m trying to stay strong
Now I know what’s right from wrong
And you were wrong, so wrong.

All this time and another day’s gone

Date written: ? 2005
Date published online: ? 2006
Date republished online: 29 Dec 2016, NYC time

Just thinking of your face
Some memories can’t be erased
I know because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness
And everything I’m gonna miss
I know that I can’t hide
Start to breathe and fake a smile
It’s all the same after a while
I know that you are tired
I wish I meant something more
I guess I’m not what you’re looking for
And I don’t want to live a lie

All this time and another day’s gone
I think it’s time to just move on

But if you fall down
And don’t land on your feet
You can always count on me
And if you come around
I’ll be there for you
Don’t have to be alone with what you’re going through
I won’t be the one who lets go of you

No matter what you’re going through
Just know that I’ll be there for you
No matter how deep or how low
I won’t be one who lets you go

Can I call you baby?

Date written: ?? 2001
Date published online: 5 Feb 2006, Malaysian time
Date republished online: 29 Dec 2016, NYC time

Somewhere in that weekend
Even before you made me your friend
Perhaps ’twas when you turned around
But sometime then, you took me down
So can I make this a little less tame
Push it forward, step up the game
What I’m saying is: can I call you baby?
So that I can be your lady.

Ku Teruskan


Date written: Oct 2008 ?, London time
Date published online: 6 Oct 2008, London time
Date republished online: 27 Dec 2016, NYC time


Ku telah mencabar hantuku
Berdepan ngan syaitanku
Ku akhirnya aman ngan silapku
Ku nampak kau jumpa kekuatan dalam saat lemahmu

Sekian lama hatiku kini tenang
Ku terlalu lama sengsara
Lemas dalam kesal hidupku
Ku teruskan…

Ku kenal tempatni
Ku cam semua muka
Setiap satu lain
Tapi semua sama juga
Mereka bukan sengaja melukaku
Tapi sudah tiba masa ku terimanya
Mereka takkan percaya ku akan berubah
Dan ku tak pernah fikir kampungku akan jadi tempat ku tak dipunyai

Ku teruskan…
Ku teruskan

Akhirnya ku nampak
Hidup dengan sabarnya menantiku
Dan ku tahu
Tiada pastinya
Tapi ku tak keseorangan dalam ni
Tiba masanya dalam hidup setiap orang
Semua yang dilihat hanyalah tahun yang berlari
Dan ku kini sudah buat keputusan
Bahawa hari-hari sebegitu sudah tamat

Ku telah jual apa yang boleh
Dan yang tidak ku bawa
Ku henti sebentar sebelum berlepas
Ku telah cinta bagai patut
Tapi hidup yang tak patut
Ku gadaikan semua untuk memahami
Mungkin akan ku jumpa kemaafan
Dalam selok ni pula

Ku teruskan…
Ku teruskan…

There’s nothing standing in our way

Date written: ?? 2001, Malaysian time
Date published online: 17 Nov 2009, London time?
Date republished online: 27 Dec 2016, NYC time

There’s nothing standing in our way

If I love you and you love me
There’s nothing standing in our way
‘Cause all the hardships that come our way
Won’t be too hard for us to face
If we both put our hearts in it
Instead of thinking with our heads
We’ll make it work, through love and faith
There’s nothing standing in our way.